Lost in space

Lost in space. What a good title. That describes my life perfectly. I feel completely lost. But for the first time, I am okay with that. I know God is in control. I know that everyone around me wishes I'd just go ahead and divorce Steve. I don't blame them for that. But the fact of the matter is that I love him and I am trusting God to move. I know that he can only fix things if Steve and I allow him. I know that Steve may not. If that's the case, I'll survive. There's a peace in my life right now where my marriage is concerned. I know that God is dealing with me on my life and that is where my focus is. I need to heal and repair damage done to me as a child. I have a homework project that my counselor gave me. It's to write out my life in stages. I didn't realize how much stuff there is in my life that was traumatic to me. But God is fixing me and helping me past that. Whethere I am married to Steve or not. I need to be whole. That's my focus.