Step of Faith

About a week ago, I was contacted by the HR department for where I work. A fellow manager & good friend had contacted HR regarding some comments made to me by management in my store and some behaviors being directed toward me. I was open and honest with them about the situation. The HR guy wanted to come in and "kick butt". I made a step of faith. I asked to be allowed to confront the people on my own first and then to confront my AD about the situation. They granted my wish. Unfortunately the GM did not take well to my concerns and comments and basically told me which cliff to go jump off of. He had the whole Popeye mentality of "I am who I am and that's all that I am" and I'm not changing for anyone. The AD stated "I think you are upset with the GM because of his treament of you and not upset about the vulgarity going on in the store so if you want I'll move you." HR called again the next day and I reported what had happened.

My GM is now gone. My AD set me down to apologize for not handling the situation correctly and for giving him a second chance to handle it. And my employees are ticked off .....at me.

Not the way I wanted it to happen. I wanted the GM to say "Yeah. You're right. We do need to up the professionalism here. Let's work on it together." I wanted the AD to investigate and fix without throwing me out there as the Complainer who is going to cost the GM their job.

Although things didn't go the way I wanted, I know I did the right thing. But what has been running through my head for the last 24 hours is that I Stood Up for what I believe in. That's a first for me in this type of situation. In the situation of my childhood, I never stood up. I never told anyone until I was grown and married exactly what happened. I let my uncle continue to do to others what he had done to me. In just about every situation in my life, (my marriage, my work) whatever, I have let people walk all over me. I've been upset about things but never spoken up and stood my ground. Refusing to budge until things changed. For the first time in my life, I did that. It feels pretty good. Sad, because I didn't want anyone to loose their job but good because I stood my ground. It's a sign. I am changing. I am breaking old habits and hang ups. God is moving and healing. Peace!!!!!